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A Picture Fading

by Starters

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1.
Two Sides 05:23
WHEN I STAYED AND PASSED UP A CHANCE AT CHANGE THIS LIFE WASN'T WHAT I HAD IN MIND MY FACE, THE CALM CONCEALS A LANDSLIDE BRINGING ME BACK TO GROUND I'VE NEVER DONE WHAT I WANTED TO DO LACK OF CONFIDENCE ALWAYS DEFEATS ME THE LITTLE WHITE LIES TOLD TO THE MIRROR SAID JUST WAIT A BIT LONGER BUT TEN YEARS AND GREY HAIRS HAVE LIFTED THE FOG BRING IT INTO SHARP FOCUS THE IMPACT OF THE DECISIONS I’VE MADE HEAD AND HEART ARE TWO SIDES OF A COIN I’M ANXIOUSLY TURNING ONCE AGAIN I FEEL THE SIDES COLLIDE CUTS AND BRUISES A STAIN ON MY PRIDE FEAR WON’T LET MY HOPE SEE LIGHT ONCE AGAIN THE SIDES COLLIDE EVERY IMPACT GETS HARDER TO HIDE CAN I LET THIS FEAR SUBSIDE HEAD AND HEART ARE TWO SIDES TWO SIDES OF A COIN I'M ANXIOUSLY TURNING RIGHT BEFORE I CLOSED MY EYES MY FATE BECAME JUST A LITTLE BIT CLEARER TO ME
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I REMEMBER STARING AT THOSE WORDS FOR DAYS PUNCH DRUNK, HOPING I COULD FIND A WAY TO CHANGE YOUR MIND AND SAY SOMETHING THAT WOULD MAKE YOU STAY KNOWING THAT NOTHING GOOD WOULD EVER BE THE SAME I REMEMBER ALL THE WORDS YOU SAID TO ME ON COLD NIGHTS IN A COLD WINTER SPENT HANGING ON TO EACH OTHER’S EVERY WORD PLANS FOR A FUTURE LEFT UNSEEN THAT LEAVES AN EMPTINESS IN PLACES I HAVE BEEN THINKING OVER THE SAME SHIT FOR YEARS HOW ALL OF MY REGRETS, ALL OF MY FEARS COME DOWN TO THAT DAY WHEN YOU HAD TO LEAVE AND I HAD TO STAY AND HOW YOUR OWN LIFE STOLE YOU SLOWLY AWAY I CAN'T LIE DOWN OR I WON'T MOVE AGAIN MY LACK OF MOMENTUM, IT THREATENS THE SAME I CAN'T LOOK BACK FOR FEAR I’LL TURN INTO STONE BUT I FEEL THE CONCRETE IS SEEPING INTO MY BONES THIS WORLD IS A DARK PLACE AND I LEARN LESSONS ALONG THE WAY THINKING OVER THE SAME SHIT FOR YEARS HOW ALL OF MY REGRETS ALL OF MY FEARS COME DOWN TO THAT DAY WHEN YOU HAD TO LEAVE AND I HAD TO STAY AND HOW YOUR OWN LIFE STOLE YOU SLOWLY AWAY I THINK YOU FOUND ME... I THINK YOU LOST ME AGAIN
3.
Tape My Eyes 04:02
DAYS SPENT WRITING IN A HAZE SPENT PINING FOR A SPACE TO LAY MY HEAD AND DROWN THE LIGHT AND CUT ALL TIES JUST FOR THE NIGHT WHEN DOES THE TIME COME FOR US TO SAY THAT IT’S NOT WORTH IT, AND FALL AWAY? I CAN'T STAND THE BOREDOM, THE WASTED TIME ‘CAUSE MINE SEEMS TO ADD UP TO A LIFETIME SO TAKE MY SIGHT TAPE MY EYES CLOSED I DON'T WANT TO SEE IN FADING LIGHT THIS FACE GROWS OLD SO TAKE MY SIGHT THE THINGS WE DO TO MAKE OURSELVES ALONE I DIG MYSELF A HOLE WITH SIDES CUT DEEP INTO THE SOIL THE THINGS WE DO TO MAKE OURSELVES ALONE I DIG MYSELF A HOLE WE CAN'T GO BACK TO THE WAY THINGS WERE BEFORE WE FELL APART, GOT HURT I KNOW YOU CAN'T STAND TO HEAR ME WHEN I WASTE OUR TIME NOT MOVING ON
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FOR ALL I KNOW OF LETTING GO YOU’LL FIND ME FORGETTING ALL I EVER HAD AND I WISH YOU’D NEVER STOPPED PRETENDING IT’S NEVER ENDING YOU KNOW I FEEL THE COLD IN EVERY BONE I THINK IT’S FUNNY WHEN YOU WORRY IS IT HARD TO SAY YOU’RE SORRY AND BELIEVE IT? ‘CAUSE I KNOW NOW, AFTER ALL WE'VE GIVEN UP I’VE HEARD IT ALL BEFORE AND I’M BETTER OFF, OR SO IT GOES… WE CARRY ON... IT’S FUNNY HOW THEY SAY THAT WE DON’T SEE ANYTHING BUT I SEE HOPE IN EVERY SINGLE DAY AFTER ALL I’VE GIVEN UP I’M CALLING OUT TO SAY I HOPE YOU’RE DOING BETTER AND AS THE LIGHTS ALL FADE WE’RE GOING ON AND ON AND ON... FOR ALL I KNOW OF LETTING GO YOU’LL FIND ME FORGETTING ALL I EVER HAD AND I WISH YOU’D NEVER STOPPED PRETENDING IT’S NEVER ENDING ALCOHOL AND CHEAP PERFUME AND POSTERED WALLS LIT BY THE MOON THROUGH BEING SHY, THROUGH BEING COOL I FOUND MY ANSWERS IN YOUR ROOM AND I’LL ALWAYS COME RIGHT BACK TO YOU AND AS THE LIGHTS ALL FADE WE’RE GOING ON AND ON AND ON... FOR ALL I KNOW OF LETTING GO YOU’LL FIND ME FORGETTING ALL I EVER HAD AND I WISH YOU’D NEVER STOPPED PRETENDING IT’S NEVER ENDING
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PICTURES FADING ON THE WALLS, ONES YOU HUNG UP GREYING PORTRAITS OF A LIFE SPENT GROWING UP WHERE DAYS BLURRED INTO ONE AND WE LOST PERSPECTIVE OVER WHAT IT WAS THAT WE'D BECOME FORGOTTEN CONVERSATIONS ECHO THROUGH THESE HALLS WARNED OF EVERYTHING THAT COMES BEFORE A FALL WELL I’VE NEVER BEEN PROUD... BUT I STILL FELL I KNOW WE BOTH LOST EVERYTHING WE HAD AND I’VE GOT A FEELING LIKE MY COLOUR'S BLEEDING AS I WATCH MY LINES RECEDE A PICTURE FADING ON THE WALL AN IMPRESSION OF A FACE I BARELY KNOW A SAD REFLECTION OF A NIGHT SPENT GROWING ALONE AS DAYS BLUR INTO ONE I GAIN PERSPECTIVE OVER WHAT IT IS THAT I’VE BECOME AND I KNOW WE BOTH LOST EVERYTHING WE HAD AND I’VE GOT A FEELING LIKE MY COLOUR'S BLEEDING AS I WATCH MY LINES RECEDE A PICTURE FADING ON THE WALL I TRY TO FORGET BUT I REMEMBER BETRAYED BY MY OWN MEMORIES I CAN’T SEEM TO SHAKE THAT RELENTLESS FEELING IT’S BRINGING ME TO MY KNEES I ALWAYS SEEM TO WANDER BUT I’M TRYING NOT TO LEAVE YOU CAN’T ALWAYS LET THE HEART WIN SO I JUST TRY MY BEST TO BREATHE
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Growing Up 02:39
MAYBE IT’S GROWING UP WHEN YOU REALISE HOME IS NO LONGER A PLACE YOU CAN HIDE YOU’RE ALONE IN THIS... ALONE IN THIS MAYBE IT’S ABOUT TIME YOU REALISE FRIENDS ARE MORE THAN MEMORIES, A PLACE TO CONFIDE YOU ARE NOT ALONE... NOT ALONE IN THIS
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I CAN NEVER QUITE HIDE THE TRUTH FROM MY EYES IT SHOWS THROUGH THE SMILE SO CLEAR TRY AS I MIGHT ‘CAUSE EVERYTHING IN MY ROOM REMINDS ME OF YOU AND I CAN'T GO ON TRYING TO SEARCH THESE THINGS THROUGH WHEN REALLY I’M SEARCHING FOR YOU A SILENT HOUSE SO STILL UNTIL DAWN SURROUNDED BY GHOSTS OF THOSE THAT I’M LEAVING YEAH I’LL ADMIT I’VE STRUGGLED WITH THIS FOR SO LONG FOR FOUR DAYS NOW I’VE WONDERED ALOUD WHERE IT ALL WENT WRONG PLEASE SAY THAT I’M DREAMING YEAH I’LL ADMIT I’VE STRUGGLED WITH THIS FOR SO LONG I CAN'T SPEND MY WHOLE LIFE STARING AT THE TILES GUILT CUTS THROUGH SELF-­PITY AND GRIEF, AN AWAKENING KNIFE AS I SETTLE ON WHY I CAN'T SLEEP THROUGH THE NIGHT AND TIME CARRIES ON AND THREATENS TO LEAVE ME BEHIND A SILENT HOUSE SO STILL UNTIL DAWN SURROUNDED BY GHOSTS OF THOSE THAT I’M LEAVING YEAH I’LL ADMIT I’VE STRUGGLED WITH THIS FOR SO LONG FOR FOUR DAYS NOW I’VE WONDERED ALOUD WHERE IT ALL WENT WRONG PLEASE SAY THAT I’M DREAMING YEAH I’LL ADMIT I’VE STRUGGLED WITH THIS FOR SO LONG
8.
Weathervane 03:44
CUT OUT FROM THE HEART OF THE CITY WASTING YOUR LIFE LOOKING FOR PITY, BUT IT’S UP TO YOU YOU’RE GONNA HAVE TO MAKE YOUR OWN WAY NO ONE BUT YOU IS GONNA SAVE YOU FROM THE GHOSTS THAT WILL ALWAYS HAUNT YOU THE PAST INFORMS US BUT YOU CAN’T LET IT DRAG YOU DOWN YOU’RE IN A PLACE WHERE I HAVE STOOD AND I STAND BESIDE YOU EVEN NOW WITH A MILLION IMPULSES IN TOW I KNOW YOU THINK YOU’RE ALONE BUT IF YOU’D ONLY TALK TO ME I’D TELL YOU HOW IT CHANGES AND HOW IT BECOMES SO CLEAR THIS IS SOMETHING I UNDERSTAND ONLY TOO WELL THEY’RE A CONSTANT WEATHERVANE POINTING YOU SOUTH YOU’RE SCREAMING I WON’T BE THERE IF YOU’RE NOT BUT YOU CAN’T FIND HAPPINESS IF ALL YOU EVER DO IS LOSE IT AND YOUR HEARTLESS FAMILY IS DRAGGING YOU DOWN SCREAMING YOU’LL NEVER GET FAR ENOUGH AWAY FROM THIS TOWN AND THEY WON’T BUY INTO IT IF ALL YOU’VE EVER LEARNED IS USELESS JUST TRY, MAKE BELIEVE THAT YOU’RE SAFE FOR ONE NIGHT AS YOU’RE STRUGGLING TOWARDS THE FIRST LIGHT WE ALL KNOW JUST WHAT WE CAN ALL HANDLE AM I WHAT YOU NEED TO FEEL SAFE AND ALIVE? AS YOU’RE WONDERING WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE ABLE TO SEE ALL THE ANGLES THERE’S A HOLE THAT’S SETTLING DEEP IN MY HEART I’M SCREAMING IT WON’T BE THERE IF YOU’RE NOT NO I CAN’T FIND HAPPINESS IF ALL I EVER DO IS LOSE YOU AND YOUR CONSTANT APATHY WON’T GET YOU FAR LIKE THE CLOUDS IN THE SKY SOMETIMES BLOCK OUT THE STARS AND I CAN’T DIE WONDERING IF EVERYTHING I DID WAS USELESS JUST TRY, MAKE BELIEVE THAT YOU’RE SAFE FOR ONE NIGHT AS YOU’RE STRUGGLING TOWARDS THE FIRST LIGHT WE ALL KNOW JUST WHAT WE CAN ALL HANDLE AM I WHAT YOU NEED TO FEEL SAFE AND ALIVE AS YOU’RE WONDERING WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE ABLE TO SEE ALL THE ANGLES CUT OUT FROM THE HEART OF THE CITY WASTING YOUR LIFE LOOKING FOR PITY, BUT IT’S UP TO YOU YOU’RE GONNA HAVE TO MAKE YOUR OWN WAY HOME
9.
So Cold 04:08
I READIED MYSELF FOR THE NEWS TAKE YOUR PAST MISTAKES AND WRITE THEM OFF AND AFTER THE WORST WAS GONE I’VE FALLEN AWAY FROM YOU I STEADIED MYSELF FOR THE NEWS TAKE YOUR PAST TWO YEARS AND WRITE THEM OFF MY LIFE WAS A MONOLOGUE WORDS THAT I’D SPOKEN FOR YOU AND AS I RECALL I NEVER KNEW WHAT WAS TAKING SO LONG IT WAS SO COLD ALONG THE WAY HEADING HOME DID YOU HAVE ANOTHER SOLITARY NIGHT ALONE, WASTING TIME? THESE WORDS HAVE BEEN LONG OVERDUE BUT THEY’VE BEEN COMING AND YOU KNOW WHAT A DIFFERENCE IT CAN MAKE TO GET IT ALL OUT IN THE OPEN UNTENDED WOUNDS HAVE A WAY OF INFECTING EVERYTHING WHEN THEY’RE JUST LEFT TO DECAY LIKE A SILENCE LEFT UNBROKEN... AN APOLOGY UNSPOKEN AND AS I RECALL I NEVER KNEW WHAT WAS TAKING SO LONG AND EVERY MISSTEP IS A REASON THAT YOU’RE GONE IT WAS SO COLD ALONG THE WAY HEADING HOME DID YOU HAVE ANOTHER SOLITARY NIGHT ALONE, WASTING TIME?
10.
Hope For Me 03:40
PLEASE EXPLAIN TO ME THESE FEELINGS TO STAY OR TO LEAVE... THEY’RE FLEETING QUESTIONS OF WHAT COULD BE FEARS OF WHAT COULD NEVER BUT KNOW THAT I HAVE HOPE FOR ME AND I HOPE YOU BELIEVE ME... I HOPE THAT I BELIEVE MYSELF ‘CAUSE IT’S TIME TO FACE THE ONCOMING WAVE OF UNCERTAINTY THAT’S BOUND TO BEND AND BUCKLE ME AND I FEEL NO SHAME AS I WALK AWAY THE SUBTLE IRONY’S NOT LOST ON ME THAT THIS MAY BE WHAT I WAS DOING ANYWAY JUST KNOW THAT I HAVE HOPE FOR ME OH GOD, I HOPE YOU BELIEVE ME... I HOPE THAT I BELIEVE MYSELF ‘CAUSE IT’S TIME TO FACE THE ONCOMING WAVE OF UNCERTAINTY THAT’S BOUND TO BEND AND BUCKLE ME AND I FEEL NO SHAME AS I WALK AWAY IT’S ABOUT TIME I ACT ON WHAT I SAY I’M NERVOUS BUT I CAN’T WAIT TO GET OUT ON THE ROAD ‘CAUSE THE PAST COUPLE YEARS ARE REALLY TAKING THEIR TOLL I WON’T PRETEND THAT I WON’T MISS IT HERE BUT THIS I FEAR IS THE ONLY OPTION LEFT TO ME AND QUESTIONS ROLL ROUND IN MY HEAD THAT I’M AFRAID TO ANSWER HAVE I HAD ENOUGH OF THIS LIFE TO LAST FOREVERMORE? TELL ME THAT YOU’LL COME AND IT WILL GET ME HALFWAY THERE I CAN FEEL THE WORLD UNFOLDING IT CARRIES ME ACROSS THE WAVES BEGIN TO RISE AND FALL THE REASONS TO STAY ARE NOW LOST
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Snowglobes 04:56
FOR AS LONG AS I REMEMBER I HAVE NEVER KNOWN JUST WHERE WE ALL BELONG THE LETTERS ON THE TABLE SAY THAT EVERYONE WE'VE EVER LOVED IS GONE THIS HOUSE HAS NEVER FELT LIKE HOME BUT IT’S THE ONLY ONE THAT I’VE EVER KNOWN STAINED WOODEN DOORS THAT NEVER USED TO CLOSE NOW FIT LIKE THEY NEVER FELT THE COLD BUT DESPITE EVERYTHING ELSE THEY SAY WE LIVE IN A WORLD FULL OF LIES HE’LL LIVE WITH THE TRUTH FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE AS I FALL, YEAH I'LL BE DREAMING OF NIGHTS WHEN THE WORLD FELT SO COLD I’VE BEEN SLEEPING ALONE YOU KNOW I’D WRITE YOU A SONG BUT THE WORDS ARE ALL GONE ON THE LAST DAY OF NOVEMBER THE DAY MY LITTLE BROTHER HE WAS BORN I WISH THERE WAS ANOTHER WAY TO REMEMBER ALL THE VOICES THAT ARE GONE THIS PLACE HAS NEVER FELT LIKE HOME BUT I WAS NEVER GOOD AT LETTING GO STAINED WOODEN DOORS THAT NEVER USED TO CLOSE NOW FIT LIKE THEY NEVER FELT THE COLD BUT DESPITE EVERYTHING ELSE THEY SAY WE LIVE IN A WORLD FULL OF LIES HE’LL LIVE WITH THE TRUTH FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE AS I FALL, YEAH I'LL BE DREAMING OF NIGHTS WHEN THE WORLD FELT SO COLD I’VE BEEN SLEEPING ALONE YOU KNOW I’D WRITE YOU A SONG BUT THE WORDS ARE ALL GONE MY MOTHER SHE LOVED BOOKS MORE THAN HE LOVED THE BOTTLE SHE USED TO SING US TO SLEEP BUT I GUESS YOU FORGOT THAT MY MOTHER ALWAYS HOPED THAT I’D HAVE A DAUGHTER I GUESS SHE ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT I’D MAKE A GOOD FATHER AND I SAW HER IN A DREAM BY THE LAKE AND THE STREETS WE ONCE ROAMED AND I SAW THE LOVE SHE HAD FOR MY FATHER BEFORE HE GOT COLD AND AS NIGHT FELL I SAW THE WORLD OPEN UP AND SWALLOW HER HOPE OF NEVER BEING ALONE YEAH WERE THE SNOWGLOBES ENOUGH TO KEEP HER HEART WARM?
12.
Borrowed 02:38
IN THE DISTANCE LIGHT BEGINS TO FILL THE SKY CREEPING INTO MY LIFE COVERING A WORLD I’VE GROWN TO HATE AND I’M PROUD, PROUD OF MYSELF FOR NEVER GIVING UP HOPE AND I’VE BEEN TELLING MY FRIENDS THAT YOU GET USED TO THE COLD AIR I’VE BEEN CAUGHT UP IN SUMMER LOVE BUT I’VE BEEN MISSING THE COLD AND I’VE BEEN COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS ‘TIL LEAVES START TO FALL AGAIN I’M BETTER LEFT ALONE TO MY OWN DEVICES MY MOTHER ALWAYS TOLD ME I AM MY FATHER’S SON SO LET ME PAINT YOU A PICTURE... GET COMFORTABLE I GAVE UP ON SUNSETS AND BEING MYSELF ON NIGHTS WHEN I CAN’T CLOSE MY EYES I VISION IMAGES OF MOMENTS WHEN THE WORLD LOOKED BRIGHT I’VE BEEN CAUGHT UP IN SUMMER LOVE BUT I’VE BEEN MISSING THE COLD AND I’VE BEEN COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS ‘TIL LEAVES START TO FALL AGAIN THE STREETS WERE FILLED WITH PEOPLE AS I MADE MY WAY HOME FOR THE BETTER PART OF A YEAR I FELT SO ALONE, SO ALONE
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A QUIET EVENING AS I MAKE MY WAY UP WASHINGTON WITH EPILOGUE STILL RINGING OUT I WATCH SPORADIC NIGHTLIFE CENTRE ON A CORNER STORE A MIDNIGHT CHILL DESCENDING NOW I'VE HOURS YET 'TIL THE GREYHOUND COMES TO TAKE ME FROM A CITY BOTH FAMILIAR AND UNKNOWN AND AS I FINALLY HEAD OUT OF TOWN A 3 A.M. CONTENTMENT SETS ME DREAMING OF THE ROAD I'VE DONE MY BEST TO HOLD ON TO THE EVIDENCE OF A LIFE AFFIRMING NIGHT SPENT FAR FROM HOME TWIN HOTELS OF HEARTBREAK PAIRED BY PROVIDENCE BUT WHEN I’M CHECKING OUT I’M LEAVING ALONE A HALF A DECADE ON, AND BACK ACROSS AN OCEAN WE SIT UP AND TALK UNTIL THE DAWN WE SPEAK OF LANGUAGE AND WORDS AND ETYMOLOGY YEAH WE HAVE PEERLESS PILLOW TALK WE'VE ONLY HOURS 'TIL THE PLANE WILL COME TO TAKE YOU FROM A CITY BOTH FAMILIAR AND UNKNOWN WE SIT ON HOTEL STEPS AND WATCH AS OTHERS PASS US BY NOT WANTING TO LET ONE ANOTHER GO I'VE DONE MY BEST TO HOLD ON TO THE EVIDENCE OF A LIFE AFFIRMING NIGHT SPENT CLOSE TO HOME TWIN HOTELS OF HEARTBREAK PAIRED BY PROVIDENCE BUT WHEN I’M CHECKING OUT I’M LEAVING ALONE IT'S HARD TO WALK AWAY BUT THERE'S NO REASON LEFT FOR ME TO STAY IT'S HARD TO WALK AWAY SO I’LL JUST WAIT HERE FOR A MINUTE TAKE THIS MOMENT WITH ME AS I GO HAD I KNOWN THIS FATE RIGHT FROM THE START I’D DO IT AGAIN WITHOUT DELAY AS IT’S GETTING LATE YOU’LL FIND ME SEARCHING FOR PROVIDENCE A HALF A DECADE ON, AND BACK ACROSS AN OCEAN, WE TALK BECAUSE IT'S HARD TO WALK AWAY BUT THERE'S NO REASON LEFT FOR ME TO STAY AS IT’S GETTING LATE YOU’LL FIND ME SEARCHING FOR PROVIDENCE, 3 A.M. SURE I’LL BE BACK AGAIN

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released September 1, 2016

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Starters Dublin, Ireland

5 piece punk rock/emo band from Ireland. Our new album 'A Picture Fading' is on Spotify and related sites.
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